There was a season not too long ago when I walked around smiling on the outside, quoting all the right scriptures, and doing my best to “stand firm,” but inside, I was weighed down by something I couldn’t shake.

I knew the truth. I could recite it, teach it, and even write blog posts about it. Yet, I still felt numb to all things spiritual. I heard silence. It’s a hard thing to admit, isn’t it? Especially when we know God loves us. I knew I was loved. I knew I was chosen. And still, that quiet lie lived rent-free in a corner of my soul: God doesn’t care about me. If He did, He wouldn’t allow all the traumatic events in my life.

I had prayed about it for years. Searched scripture. Did all the good Christian things: devotionals, Bible studies, journaling, long talks with the Lord in my car and sometimes in the closet. I believed in daily grace and mercy for others, but I didn’t sense it for myself. And it wasn’t a head issue. It was a soul bruise.

When Someone’s Words Wound More Than Sticks and Stones

There are people in life who hold the power to speak directly to our souls, and when one of them misuses that power, it hits differently. Some wounds aren’t loud. They’re lingering.

In my case, the wound came from a deeply trusted voice. Someone who had once cheered me on but later told lies that echoed long after they left the room. That’s the thing about soul wounds: they echo. And over time, those echoes can start to sound like God’s voice if we’re not careful.

But God, in His kindness, is not in the business of echoing lies. He’s in the business of setting people free.

When God Adds His Super to Our Natural

Recently, while I was re-reading my Bible study workbook on Esther, who, by the way, is the ultimate example of courageous obedience, I realized something significant. Esther didn’t take on a nation-threatening crisis alone. She asked others to fast and pray with her.

That detail struck me in a new way. I’d spent so much time trying to power through this spiritual weight on my own. But like Esther, I needed to humble myself and ask for help.

So I did. I let my guard down and confided in a couple of trusted friends about the spiritual numbness and silence I was facing. I asked them to pray, not just a polite “sending prayers” kind of prayer, but the fierce, targeted, call-down-heaven kind.

And within hours, that lie lost its grip.

No fireworks. No goosebumps. Just a quiet inner shift that felt like a stone rolling off my chest. The lies that had lived there for years crumbled. And this time, it didn’t come back.

Standing Still Can Be an Act of War

This wasn’t my first spiritual wrestling match. I’ve walked through divorce, betrayal, traumatic injuries to both of my sons, autoimmune flare-ups, church hurt, neighbor harassment, and a whole heap of plot twists I didn’t see coming. And every time, God brought me through. Sometimes quickly. Sometimes slowly. But always faithfully.

One verse that carried me again during this breakthrough was Exodus 14:13-14:

“Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today… The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (NIV)

There’s power in that stillness. Not passive, twiddling-your-thumbs stillness. But a spiritual posture that says, I’ve done all I can. Now I trust You to do what only You can.

That kind of stillness is fierce. It’s faith in motion without motion.

And the word “deliverance” here? It also means victory. So when God tells us to stand still and watch His deliverance, He’s really saying, “Watch Me win this for you.”

The Book Where God Isn’t Mentioned but Never Absent

It’s funny how the Book of Esther doesn’t mention God by name. Not once. And yet, His fingerprints are everywhere, woven into the timing, the courage, the favor, and the deliverance.

Sometimes, our own seasons feel like that. Like God is silent or hidden. But that doesn’t mean He isn’t at work behind the scenes, arranging something greater than we can see yet.

From Lie to Liberation: Scripture That Carried Me

Here are a few key verses that anchored me as God dismantled the lie I’d carried for far too long:

• “After having done all, stand.”
  Ephesians 6:13
  → When we’ve cried, prayed, journaled, and gone through a gallon of coffee or tea—we don’t need a new plan.We just need to keep standing in truth.
• “And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests… always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.”
  Ephesians 6:18
  → We were never meant to wrestle spiritual battles alone. Prayer is both armor and lifeline.
• “He was pierced for our transgressions… by His wounds we are healed.”
  Isaiah 53:5
  → When our wounds are exposed to His, they don’t stay wounds. They become places of restoration.
• “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness.’ Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may reside in me.”
  2 Corinthians 12:9
  → This one hits home. The thing I thought disqualified me, the lingering weakness, became the exact place where God’s power showed off. His grace didn’t just cover me. It strengthened me.

When Feelings Lie but God Doesn’t

Even after I was free from the lie, I kept marveling at how long it had lingered. How feelings, even when they aren’t factual, can hold so much weight. That’s why it matters that we don’t walk alone.

When others prayed with me, they helped me bind the lie and loose truth over it.

“Whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” — Matthew 18:18

“If two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done…For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.” — Matthew 18:19-20

There’s something powerful about agreement. Especially when you’ve been silently wrestling. Sometimes, a breakthrough begins with vulnerability.

Maybe You’re Next

So let me ask you gently, but honestly, what lie are you still carrying? Is there a wound that hasn’t healed because it was never truly exposed to Jesus? Maybe, like me, you know the truth in your head but feel stuck in your heart.

You’re not alone.

It may be time to invite someone in. To ask for prayer. To finally open your hands and say, God, I trust You to fight this one for me.

You don’t have to be ashamed of the struggle. That shame? That’s not from God. He doesn’t shame us into healing. He invites us into it.

Rest Feels Different on the Other Side

Now that the lie is gone, I feel lighter and relieved. It’s not as if I’ve “arrived” at some spiritual summit, but rather as if I’ve come home to the truth that was always mine.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28

He’s good like that.

Cheers to Truth…and to Healing

If you’re still in the thick of it, don’t lose hope. Breakthrough isn’t just for the person with the perfect quiet time routine. It’s for you. It’s for me. It’s for anyone willing to stand still, pray with others, and let God fight the battle no one else sees.

So here’s to truth. To healing. To that beautiful exchange when our natural meets His super.

And to every lie that will never again have the last word.

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